Enfin La Paix?

This last three years I have been manic and definitely depressive and everything in between. What I have not had is peace. Today I filed for divorce. Someone has to respect me and I guess it is me. I do not want a divorce but I cannot handle the living in limbo thing anymore either. The last time I tried to do this, thinking it would be empowering, I ended up curled up in a ball sobbing for two days. I am guessing that perhaps I wasn't ready. :)

Anyway, I am as tired to the bone of being sad as everyone around me is tired to the bone of listening to this drivel! LOL. So you know what I mean. Right now this is what passes for moving ahead.

And for those of you who are thinking, "You have to be kidding me. They're not divorced yet?!" Well, yeah. Shut up. I realize that I am finally acquiring the wisdom already mastered by most ten year olds but the bright side is that once I learn it is usually well ingrained. Just a tad challenged.

So, between that and the bankruptcy I have been spending an inordinate amount of time on Courthouse Row in Riverside. It is actually one of the nicest areas of the city with some of the oldest buildings (which in California is a ridiculous statement). And the family law court has a very nice courtyard. So, it is all upside.

I kind of liked the shadow of the palm tree on the courthouse.

I know a French title is idiotic but you try naming it. Makes it sound more profound. I thought of D-I-V-O-R-C-E or perhaps "What the h*** took me so long" or "Duh" or ..?

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And as for good friends, had a last minute barbeque invitation extended to me and the Bocharovs by the Sattlers and by some miracle we were all able to make it. Last minute is often easier I think. Paul did a tri-tip on the grill and now I finally know how. It was SOOOOO good.

Last barbeque of the summer. The kids are already back in school.